But everybody’s changin’ too"
It really is frustrating at times when things just go all wrong and crappy. right? first there are people who just treat you like crap. who actually beat the best out of you and leave you wounded and hurt. then again you ask yourself time and time again why you can't get yourself to leave that person an let her feel the pain that your actually felt, then you ealize you can't oz that's how much you actually care.
to whomever you are, i hope you know that you really have beaten the f***ing crap out of me. hanging out with your so called new friends. I hope you care, even for just a sec how you hurt the people around you due to your irrational behavior. It pains me so much to see you hurt, it really doesn't matter much to me whether or not you talk to me at certain times, coz we all know that were all so busy now o days. but to treat me like carp and like you don't care, that's what suck. whenever your worlds starts to crumble down, who, catches you? who makes sure that your okay? who makes sure that you feel good? I hoep you know why people treat you like crap at times, coz you also treat people likewise. It's just really frustrating that after all the times that weve been through together all you an give is s***. well here the thing i'm tired of your bull shh....so better keep that to yourself. why don't you just lock yourself up is your so meso-dramatic-tragic-whatsoevr world of yours? despite that you know that i can't let you do so. coz that's how much i care. you think that your the only one who gets hurt? well here the thing, there are 365 days in a year, calculate how many wars happend in all the distatnt and remote ares in the world as of today? and at present, how many fammilies are mourning due to the fact that at least one of the close realatives have died due to the onging wars in their area? so talk about hurting huh? i know you've been through a lot but that's not an excuse to burry yourself with all those problems. the important thing is to rise above it and to face a new dawning day ahead of you. a hope you know that i only want whats best for you. thats because i care...
another is when all the suuden someone whom you've known for so long to be warm funny and kind turns cold. and the worst part is that you have no idea why she suddenly turned that way. not even a hint or what so ever. just a cold shoulder.
to you who all the sudden has turned so cold to me. for whatever i've done I'm sorry. I don't really know why but please if your kind enough please tell me why, educate me for all the right reasons. I really don't ask for much, just explanations why . I hope that you don't make a big deal about simple things that aren't suppose to be thought about. and for whatever I've done, I'm sorry. I really am and that I hope you know that I LOVE YOU no matter what.
Last is to the person I've actually hurt the most, you know who you aree. I'm sorry that I caused this mess for you and for her, I'm sorry that things actually had to go to an abyss. I know I shouldn't have said those thing about you and her. know that I only did those thing coz I care about you a lot and that I don't want you to get hurt. coz I've seen you time and time again, and believe me it isn't nice to watch from my point of view. I hope you know that despite all these, know that I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...my beloved brother and I"M SORRY i'm such a pain in your but and in your relationship.
this is a messege that I send to everyone, sometimes when things go wrong the only thing to get through it all is through a sincere apology to make things right again. even when it means swallowing a whole gulp of PRIDE.
"I hope you never lose your sense of wonder ,you get your fill to eat ,but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted, god forbid love ever leave you empty handed "
Just like a game of connect the dots