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My life in black and white
Just like a game of connect the dotsThe Beautiful Letdown
“In a world full of bitter pain and bitter doubts, I was trying so hard to fit in. Until I found out I don't belong here”. These are only a couple of lines from Switchfoot’s “The beautiful letdown. What does this mean anyway? Well according to front man Jon Forman, The song tells a tail about man’s never ending endeavor to keep things together. In doing this he ends up keeping things in order but leaves himself unhappy. He then learns that in his perplexed universe, sometimes things are bound to fall, and all he can do is hold on and hope for a brighter tomorrow.
I was always the type that sought to please everybody. I guess I got that result once or twice, but in the end someone was always unhappy; me. Growing up I was always displeased with the way my grandma treated me and my siblings; often comparing us to my cousins. I guess that was why I looked at my life as a letdown. Being treated as second best, I always thought that one way or another I could show her that we deserved the respect she gave to my cousins. I guess that was why I strived to excel in my studies. I wasn’t victorious in the end though, as I ended up displeasing myself more. I guess this was when I realized that there was definitely something missing. I needed something more, though I was fortunate to be blessed with a loving family and wonderful friends, but my life lacked something, or rather someone.
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It isn’t about how many people knew your name, it about how many lives you’ve touched. It isn’t about the number of breaths but it’s the number of times life takes your breath away. And it isn’t about your will, but rather it about the father’s will. So the next time your life crumbles to pieces, in stead of re-assembling it, try to think twice and check. You might be in the middle of god’s beautiful letdown.