My life in black and white
Puzzle Pieces
Just like a game of connect the dots
We learn to derive things from previous experiences,
We learn to accept the realization that indeed everything happens for a reason.
And that every experience is a learning lesson.
We learn to smile, laugh and cry
We smile when it hurts, laugh to hide the pain
and love till it hurts no more
this is the beauty of it all
and I wouldn't have it any other way
7.27.2011
All my windows might be broken, but I'm still standing on my feet @
11:10 AM
"Go down and try to tear me down, I will be rising from the ground"
It's been a month since my last blog post. Phew what a busy month :) anyways this blogpost is dedicated to my new found good friend meow haha you know who you are love ;) It's good to look back at what happend,wow would you look at that, a month ago I was sulking, basking in emptiness and now, a month after, I guess I can say that I'm stronger, maybe not wiser, but I'll get there. To be honest, I'm not that OVER you, srsly, but reaching this point, I know that I will, maybe not tomorrow or the day after that, but pretty soon I guess, and yes I hope so. Looking at the kind of friendship we have, I pretty much want to keep you in my life as a good friend, I want to be able to watch your back, just as how you would. You're a jerk, I know you are and I guess sometimes I can be a jackass at times, I guess were even then. I just realized how were so alike and yes, for some, it might be cute and sweet :"> but honestly, feelings can only take us up to somewhere, I guess I'll never be able to understand how these feelings started to develop but as of the moment, I'm HAPPY where we are :D A friend once told me, maybe we have a platonic relationship, as to what platonic means, hell I have no idea =)) but there are somethings that are hard to explain. I'll never be able to explain why hugging you always completes my day, why I have to buy candy and give you at least one piece, why kiddin with you always brightens up my day or why the hell must I always confide in you. All I know is that you brighten my day up ,and yes you make me smile but as for the kind of jitterry feeling that everyone expects,its gone and as sad as it may sound, but I guess it's gone. There was a time that I hope that you would look at me differently, maybe as a girl, and not just your best bud that you punch and push around(srsly stop punching me please T__T it hella hurts btw) but now, I guess I don't see it that way anymore. I was talkin to one of my best friends the other day,and as of the moment she's going through the same thing, and yes I told her that its starts out awkward, and yes it's hard seeing "him" talk to other girls, and hoping that he'll talk to you and all that shit. That's when you start to make yourself over, try to look pretty, become conscious of how you look, feel and act then again you feel that you fall short of his expectations. but then again slowly you gradually realize what you really mean to him, as for now, my friend doesn't really know what she means to her "guy" but for me I know what I mean to you :) and I'm glad to know that at least I mean something, for me that's all that I need to know :) Maybe I'll tell you how I felt, one day, when we'll look back at these days and we'll be ready to laugh these things off. Cheers to the future but in the mean time I'm really happy with where we are I pray that our friendship lasts :) I can't promise that I'll be okay with whatever the hell your doing, but I know that I'm getting there, just be patient with me please? :) "Time that I'm taking I pray it's not wasted, how I've already tasted my piece of one sweet love"
