My life in black and white
Puzzle Pieces
Just like a game of connect the dots
We learn to derive things from previous experiences,
We learn to accept the realization that indeed everything happens for a reason.
And that every experience is a learning lesson.
We learn to smile, laugh and cry
We smile when it hurts, laugh to hide the pain
and love till it hurts no more
this is the beauty of it all
and I wouldn't have it any other way
9.06.2011
This ain't a movie, I know things wont work out between you and me @
10:17 AM
"You've got your life, I pray that she treats you right."
Last day of term break is on. Hello 2nd term and yes I am kind nervous, hesitant and reluctant to go back. For what it's worth its isn't because of him, He's just happens to be one of the few reasons. Moving on, one would be the fact that I've got more subjects now, new schedule on the rocks and a couple more new responsibilities such as a new project in the guild. and it all starts to hit you like a tidal wave.
Time passes you by in a jif, like you don't even realize that time has already passed you by, before you know it, 2nd term is over and it's good bye blockmates :(( noooo I love them oh soo much.
As for the thinking, well here it goes, I've grown to realize that I think it would be best to let go. I'm tired of fretting, of being angry and most of all, of hurting. Waiting for a chance is hopeless, and all I know is that it would be best for everybody. Yes I did miss you, but not that much.
I've grown to understand, that I can live without you, well that isn't how I intend things to be, but all I know is that I can be okay without you. I'll just concentrate on the things that make me happy, on school work, my family and friends. All those things hat I neglected. I've come to that simple realization that I don't need you to be happy or to be fine, so do you.After all I was able to live through break without anything from you.
You really don't care that much anyways, so instead of putting burden on my shoulders, I'd much rather set myself free. I don't know what tomorrow brings to be honest, I don't really know if I'm going to be fine, or if I'll be able to manage things with you around again. but all I know is that I'll be okay, I hope so. I will be and I trust that things with you and me would be too.
Letting you go is hard, but I've got to love myself first.I've got to leave some for me.
"I'm ready to feel now, no longer am I afraid of the fall down."
