My life in black and white
Puzzle Pieces
Just like a game of connect the dots
We learn to derive things from previous experiences,
We learn to accept the realization that indeed everything happens for a reason.
And that every experience is a learning lesson.
We learn to smile, laugh and cry
We smile when it hurts, laugh to hide the pain
and love till it hurts no more
this is the beauty of it all
and I wouldn't have it any other way
3.30.2013
Saying things that matter @
1:16 PM
"Were smiling but were close to tears, even after all these years"
This song would often have this bitter sweet effect on me. It's ironic lyrical symphonies entail so much reasoning about things we often fear divulging in. For instance, talking about TRUTH, something that's definitely hard to handle. I've often tell my friends about how the truth hurts and how they shouldn't ask a question if they aren't ready handle the answer that comes with it. I guess that's what I've been guilty of lately. I haven't been to keen to telling the truth. I haven't been assertive enough to tell people how I've been sick and tired of working or with how obnoxious they've been. Smiling when, you're really ticked off with how they've been making a complete ass of themselves. I know that I have got to start owning up to how I really feel about situations such as these, and yet I can't really find the courage to do so. I know I've been caving lately and I guess that's how my mechanism works lately. The fear of being misunderstood always stands out and I guess that's why I haven't been myself lately.
"Someone help us cause were doing our best"
Is this the best that I can do? I guess not, I'm stronger and better that this. I just need to push myself a little further. and I'm starting today, finishing final papers and projects. Though these are the last few weeks of the term, I know I can still do something. Time to stop being mediocre and start doing something worth my while. and though things are jammed to the core, thank God that I'm still keeping my head above clear waters, I just pray that it doesn't hit high tide or that the waves don't wash me ashore.
"These times are hard and they're making us crazy don't give up on me baby"
Patience is all I ask, and I know that with a little bit of that, I'll be fine. Just deal with things the best way possible. I just hope the Lord grants me grace to deal with things likewise.
