My life in black and white
Puzzle Pieces
Just like a game of connect the dots
We learn to derive things from previous experiences,
We learn to accept the realization that indeed everything happens for a reason.
And that every experience is a learning lesson.
We learn to smile, laugh and cry
We smile when it hurts, laugh to hide the pain
and love till it hurts no more
this is the beauty of it all
and I wouldn't have it any other way
9.29.2015
Morphine @
1:26 PM
I wish I could turn off feelings, just like I could turn off the lights. To erase what I feel and think, just so things happen differently.
The reason why I don't like holding people so closely to my heart because I'm afraid of the day they leave. I'm afraid to care enough, because I know the moment I do, I'll be pulled in to this massive black hole of emotions. Please don't get me wrong, its not that I don't care, its just that I choose not to, because it lets me feel less humane and vulnerable.
When you see the people you love hurting in the most painful way possible, it scares the living crap out of you. You try to run away from feeling and hurting as much as possible. You get scarred and everything just collapses.
So please I beg you, just give me more time. I promise I'll let you in. Trust me I will. Just give me more time to get through this trauma. I can feel, I can love and I do care, trust me, just give me time. I'll let you in, tell you all my secrets, If you do the same.
